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I have watched three Hallmark Christmas movies in the last… 27 hours give or take. I thought about starting another one but I wanted to read for a bit before I go to sleep. Since I got home around 9pm tonight I don’t have a whole lot of time before I should be in bed. I should probably be there now, really, especially if I want to read for a bit. I definitely want to read. I started a book at work and two minutes in I knew I was going to love it. I mean, it’s a trash book. The whole series is GARBAGE (I just started the 10th one—THE TENTH ONE—and there are still a couple more), but they’ve been really fun garbage overall. Each book gives you a glimpse of the next couple she’s going to focus on getting together in the following book so each time I’ve finished one I’ve been anxious to pick up of the rest. They’re like $3 each, but they’re included in Kindle Unlimited so I’ve been able to check them out that way.

It’s honestly absurd that I should ever buy another book ever (uhhhh I totes will, but it IS ridiculous that I still buy stuff) considering that I have access to three libraries and the kindle unlimited library and then an audible subscription including the romance reader bit where I have access to a big bunch of romance audiobooks that I can download and listen to in my audible account. The stuff available on Hoopla and OverDrive is pretty damn extensive. It used to be you had to like start a coal mining business to find any queer romance stories at the library (at least ones that were just fun and had happy endings), but now there is a shit ton available—at least at the three libraries I’m a member of. I mostly use the Charlotte-Mecklenburg Hoopla access when it comes to my digital reading because I have two library cards with them (one for work and one for myself) so I have two Hoopla accounts through them. Granted I think I could set up a third with my Horry County Library Card, but switching between three accounts just seems excessive. If I run out of check outs for a month though between the two accounts (unlikely since I get six checkouts per month per account and again I have access to a boatload of books I’ve already purchased, OverDrive for two different libraries, 3M cloud something or another, and then all the physical books in Charlotte-Mecklenburg, Union County, and Horry County and then of course audible.

I’m pretty sure that as long as I can find a way to access electronics, I have enough reading material to last me the rest of my life.

I… You know what? This was supposed to be about my Christmas Movie Obsession, but apparently we took a detour towards my book obsession. I’m guessing I had a point about my book obsession too but oh well. Guess I’ll have to try again tomorrow.

Current Mood: mischievous

So a couple of days ago I ranted about dating girls versus dating boys, and like a mess of other things and the reason that I mentioned it was because I thought mayyyybe one of my coworkers was maybe attempting to set me up with her daughter. I still wasn’t sure what was happening yesterday and I asked one of my other coworkers if he knew if the lady who had mentioned her daughter had anyone in her family who was queer. He said that he didn’t think so. He said that said coworker was pretty conservative Christian though her daughters had gotten her to lighten up a little on that front. My friend Emily said she thought the lady was (and I quote) “just being a mom.”

I honestly felt a little disappointed? I mean the daughter sounded fun and as much as I don’t want to do the whole “single and ready to mingle”/online dating profile/etc. thing, I do eventually want to meet someone special.

So I got back to work after lunch where I had said conversations with dude coworker (who may or may not be flirting with me? Also not sure on this?? God, for someone who is usually pretty good at reading people, I am shit at reading people’s interest in me) and my friend Emily and ran into lady coworker who has said geeky daughter. I hadn’t seen her the rest of the day and I gave some sort of greeting and she was like “Oh Kate, I gave my daughter your number” and some other stuff about her looking for missing ornaments for her tree and that she might reach out to me.

And I’m thinking yeah, okay her mom could just be “being a mom” or whatever but this really feels like a maybe set up? Which of course I tell my friend and so then we’re trying to figure it out and get all of no where.

Still, it doesn’t matter either way if she doesn’t call or text me.

GUESS WHAT SHE TEXTED ME LAST NIGHT.

We’ve texted A LOT over the last 27 hours or so and it’s been really, really fun. So I started thinking, okay at least I know we have a lot in common and we can probably be friends.

Of course I’m still trying to figure out if she’s queer. It doesn’t necessarily mean she’ll be interested in me that way, but I mean, I want to know if I at least won’t be rejected based on gender.

Quick side note: I recognize that most of the world can say that they only feel attraction to people of one, specific, gender. But for real, that seems fucking crrraazzzzyyy to me. How anyone can be like “I’m not attracted to anyone in that gender” is LOST on me. I mean, look at some of the people out there. No exceptions? Not ever? Frankly? Does.not.compute. Asexuality I get. Straight up not really being into the whole sex thing or only being into the sex thing under specific circumstances or if you have a certain level of emotional investment, I totally get. But just like “no, that person has a penis, I’m automatically not interested”... well, okay cis-men on a whole are kind of awful so maybe that’s sort of understandable. Even then though, I would get the “I don’t date men” but I don’t think I’d get the “not attracted” to them. Anyway, I know it’s a real thing that people are like “totally straight” or “completely gay,” but it just doesn’t make sense to me.

… I need to go to bed. I have work in the morning. Ugh.

Anyway, back to my story.

She and I are texting about stuff and I won’t give the entire run down but she mentioned that she had recently broken up with someone who she also works with at her part time job and that they’d been friends for a long time before they started dating and so they’re trying to work out being friends and coworkers again. Now, this part time job (she’s a technology teacher full time) is at a Hallmark store. I realize that it’s sexist to say that straight men don’t work in Hallmark stores so I won’t say that but I will say that I have literally never seen a man working in a Hallmark Store. So I press and I keep my pronouns neutral because thus far she’d been very careful not to have to use any pronouns (only words like “friend” and “coworker” which are totally gender neutral). I told her she didn’t have to talk about it but she did. And her ex is a woman!! And she explained that she feels the way I feel about attraction and gender and it was AMAZING.

We’ve been texting furiously about Harry Potter and our dislike of weird food textures and Christmas ornaments and just fun stuff.

Tomorrow she’s going to make breakfast for dinner and we’re going to work on a puzzle and maybe watch a movie and I’m just really freaking excited.

Now I really, really need to go to bed so I can shower in the morning and wear something cute tomorrow. Night y’all!

Current Mood: flirty

I’m still so effing tired y’all; worn slam out I am. I did a good bit today. Got my returns to Zulily worked out and off to FedEx. Did a few morning pages. Spent an hour and a half with the branch manager of my local library to help me prep for my interview at the library in Charlotte. I was hoping she’d have five or ten minutes for me, but seriously she spent ages with me which was super, super kind. I definitely want to send her a thank you note or something.

I wish my handwriting was better but it’s unfortunately terrible. I can probably put something reasonable together though if I try really, really hard. My friend Emily has incredible handwriting and I’m always so, so jealous.

Anyway, moving on. What else did I do today? Well, I did some tidying up around my room though I still have a bit more to do. I helped mom kill a black widow spider that was in our mailbox. I sent off the tire warranty thing I’d been meaning to send off for about three months (it was low priority). I activated my refund cards from the medical peoples. I got my old Kindle set up and charged so that I can use it as my official writing reference book. I was thinking how most of the time I get paperback copies of my writing reference books because I want to be able to highlight and study etc. But I can make notes and highlight on a Kindle. But I didn’t want to use the kindle I normally use for reading because I felt like I’d have trouble swimming through my other 3,000 books and documents and that would also be distracting. The Kindle editions are often much cheaper so now that I have a dedicated Kindle to keep at my writing desk, I won’t feel like I have to have the paperback in most cases. I’m sure there will still be exceptions.

I feel like there were other, little tasks I did today but that I’m forgetting them. I did give the dog her heart worm medicine and put the tick and flea repellent on her. She was such a good girl. I need to clean her ears again, but she always hides from me for hours, sometimes a whole day, after I do that to her and she hates it so much. I really hate doing it to her but she’s been shaking her head and scratching her ears a lot lately so I know they’re bothering her. I did a wash Thursday and they seemed to be a lot better today (... yesterday? Friday, whatever that is now) which is good but when I did the wash her ears looked red and aggravated and I doubt one wash is enough. At the same time the wash is only meant to be used a couple of times a week so I don’t want to do back to back days either, just in case. I don’t do it on the regular even though I really, really should. She hates it so much that I get to feeling really bad about it. Not to mention that it’s a monster of a task to do, even if you have two people. She’s a pretty big dog and she fights. Well, she fights to get away; she never barks or growls or snaps or bites or anything like that.

Wynonna Earp was bat shit crazy tonight. I think next week is going to be crazy face. I wish I didn’t have to get through a whole work week in order to get to the next episode, but dems dah breaks.

I really need to sleep. I have breakfast with my sister in the morning.

Current Mood: cheerful

1) Plan the Wilmington Avengers Adventure (aka going to Wilmington, NC to hang out with my friend Jason and going to see the Avengers).

Everything is pretty much in order at least as far as coordinating with my friend. I had to compromise on how detailed the plans are because of the friend I'm going to see, but as I made real effort, discussed everything fairly thoroughly, and have the big details hammered out, I'm going to say that this is completed.

On top of that, I'm seeing a midnight show with a friend in town and I've already printed off the tickets for that.

2) Get new sheets.

I've been sleeping on these new sheets for a while now and I have got to say that I really love them. They're pretty and wonderfully comfortable.

3) Catalog what comics I have in which series in a way that is mobile so that I don't pick up duplicates.

I did this. I worked ridiculously hard on this. Then something happened to my iPod. I didn't lose any of my purchases because I had everything backed up (it was like an accidental software reset - don't ask, I don't know what I did, but yes I'm sure it was my fault so don't you dare go bad mouthing my iPod as I get a little violent over my Shiny! okay?) but all the comics I'd so painstakingly added were lost.

Since that worked out so badly, I couldn't make myself input the information again. I did, however, find a website ( stashmycomics.com ) which I made myself an account for. It's not as mobile as the app or as I'd like it to be, but it is a good start. I can also download an Excel sheet of all my comics from the site which is helpful.

4) Start Cataloging my books.

I started over with this too. Long story, but the app I was using kept adding the wrong title, the wrong author, or just adding 18 of a single book. It was annnnooying. I went shopping for a new one and when I found it, I started the project over. I have 172 of my books cataloged so far which includes the books from my upstairs closet and the plastic drawer thing out in the hallway.

5) Take the printers and the old cameras to Best Buy to be recycled.

I was very sad to find out that the one near my house is one of the ones that will be closing :/ but yes, goal completed.

6) Write 15,000 words.

Made my word count (just barely), but with everything going on that has been going on (ugghhh I don't even want to talk about it), I'm seriously okay with that.

7) Finish at least one story from my

avengers_tables and if possible two as that will complete the table.

I'm very excited to say that I did complete my stories and finish the table. It felt really great.

8) Write a story for

love_bingo

I have actually finished four stories for this and I am currently working on the final one I need to shout Bingo! I think once I've got the traditional Bingo! I may also do some of the extra things from it.

9) Get and read my book club book.

I read about half the book before I realized I really wasn't a big fan. I did skim the rest though, so I could say that I read it. I just didn't really care for it.

In addition, I've been quite social-able and read a couple more books for my "Alphabet Challenge". All in all I'd say that even though this was kind of a rough month for me, I was at least productive.

Hopefully I'll post May's goals tomorrow, but it might be a few days because of all the stuff I've got going on. For now I will bid you adieu.

Current Mood: exhausted

Title: Thiever of iPods aka Dad

Characters: Darcy Lewis, Phil Coulson, Jane Foster, Erik Selvig

Summary: After all Jane's research is taken, Darcy calls her dad.

Verse: Marvel Movie Universe. / Thor 2011

Rating: PG

Spoilers: Small ones for Thor the Movie and one for my story "Pain in the... Head" as this is a sort of prequel

Warnings: None

Disclaimer: *I make no money from this and I mean no disrespect or harm. I'm also pretty sure that I am not damaging profits for those who do own the rights in anyway.*

love_bingo Prompt - Fatherhood

AO3

Theiver of iPods aka Dad

( Darcy has some very choice words for her father. )

Current Mood: cheerful

1) Plan the Wilmington Avengers Adventure (aka going to Wilmington, NC to hang out with my friend Jason and going to see the Avengers).

Time off - Check

Schedule Coordinated for Traveling - Check-ish

Picking a time and getting tickets - No where near...

2) Get new sheets.

Check!

3) Catalog what comics I have in which series in a way that is mobile so that I don't pick up duplicates.

Check.

Bought more comics and added them too.

4) Start Cataloging my books.

So far I've added 118 of my books. I've still got a long way to go before I've got all my books, but this is a very good start.

5) Take the printers and the old cameras to Best Buy to be recycled.

Check, check.

6) Write 15,000 words.

This is going very well. Less than 5,000 words left to go - Woot!

7) Finish at least one story from my

avengers_tables and if possible two as that will complete the table.

One check, two check, and table? Check!

8) Write a story for

love_bingo

Check! Two done, one is in the editing process and the other is finished, but can't be posted yet (this other story has to be posted first, but it's LONG and editing it is a BITCH).

9) Get and read my book club book.

Got the book, check. Reading the book in progress.

Current Mood: sleepy

1) Read "Hunger Games" for Book Club.

2) Finish the 3rd part of "You're to Blame" or all the parts of my table, preferably both, but realistically that's likely to be too much.

3) Write at least as much in March as I did in February.

4) Work on the money situation.

5) Say yes to one social-able invitation that includes more than book club, fellowship, or friends who live in a different area, preferably involving people who you have not hung out with socially in the past. I will null this if the only invitation is to go on a date with a guy I'm not comfortable saying yes to. I do need a good reason to not be comfortable, though, no offense meant to any one who has them, but having children counts - I'm not ready to be in dating situation that involves children. It is important that I stay out of the lives of children I cannot, at this time in my life, commit to. Also, this does not require me to say yes to people I don't like, such as Wendy, who makes me angry but seems to think we're friends.

6) Make it so that you aren't the only one who can see the improvements in your living spaces.

7) Finish at least one, preferably two alphabet challenge books.

8) Decide of pointless posts like these count towards writing, and if so how to include them in the count... If they do count, require the word count for March be higher than that of February by at least 500 words.

Current Mood: sleepy

1) Write something and keep track of the daily word count - ish.

- Totally updating my word count excel sheet every day. I plug in the story word count at the end of the day and it - viola! - tells me what I've written (I've written a little over 12,300 words thus far this month and today is in fact the first day I have not written at least some in one of my stories).

2) Finish something I'm writing, dammit.

- I finished first and second parts of "You're to Blame" (second part currently in the Beta/Editing phase).
- I finished MASH which is a coda of sorts to my "Truth or Dare" series (also currently in the Beta/Editing phase)
- I have begun going over other stories in hopes that one of them will poke back at me so I can work more on them. I realized have nearly 9,000 words in story which I would one day like to finish especially since I have already spent so much freaking time on it.

3) Read/Finish two books from the "Alphabet Challenge"

- One book down! Will be updating my list soon.

If you're interested in what I'm doing click here.
If you'd like to see what I've read so far, you can see that here.

4) Do some tidying up in the room.

- I dusted!
- I threw out all the trash from my couch (yes, there is a small couch in my room - it is mostly used as a way station for my books, bags, and clothes).
- Organized all my stuff for doing my taxes.
- Got all the books onto shelves or in crates and boxes (aka off the couch and floor).

5) Don't be a complete recluse.

- Went to see "The Woman in Black" with friends and had drinks after.
- Spent Thursdays at Fellowship (okay not necessarily ambitious socially, but an evening out of the house counts).
- The 29th will be Book Club, so there's that with the gang.
- Going to see Jaymie, though this may not be until the first of March, so we'll see if this counts (or not).
- I feel like there's more and I've just forgotten it.

6) Don't spend money I don't actually have.

- This appears to be going okay. I mean, there's a lot of work I need to do on the car and I'm not sure how I'm going to pay for it. But hey, so far, so good.

Side notes: Still obsessed with Jeremy Renner, looking into actually reading comic books not just watching movies "based" on them, I NEED more Cho/Summer in my life (which may or may not result in the search for fanfic) and free episodes on iTunes FTW.

Current Mood: accomplished

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OKAY?!

SPOILER BEYOND THE LJ CUT

( By clicking this link, you hereby relinquish any rights to blame the writer of this blog for spoilers for “At First Blush” that you may encounter herein. )

Dear Lord in Heaven, I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm not sure I want you to fix it. At this moment in time, I am very much enjoying the insanity I have been blessed with.

Night y'all!

Current Mood: Joyously Gleeful

Title: "Ganked"
Fandom: NCIS: LA
Characters: Eric, Nell
Pairing: No more Eric/Nell than the show
Summary: Eric's didn't want anyone to know about one of his favorite shows.
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Vaguely for 3.07 - or at least I vaguely reference that episode.
Warnings: None really
Disclaimer: Seriously? What is up with all these shows who won't let me have the rights to them? Someone should have hired me to write for them already!!

"Ganked"

( The doorbell rings )

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Location: headed to bed

When I saw the preview for Iron Man, I thought it looked like fun. When I saw Iron Man, I realized it was love. Then came The Incredible Hulk, and I realized just how excited I was about these movies. I'm pretty sure my squeal at Tony's appearance after the credits of The Incredible Hulk was heard several states over. I suppose it was more like scream or a screech than a squeal.

Okay I'll quit waxing poetic about my love for the Avenger movies and get to the point.

shanachie_quill and I have started a comm for the Avengers' movies and I am excited about it. Frankly, my little nerd heart can barely stand it.

We launched earlier today and the only thing we need now are members and their posts. Come by and join us if you're interested.

furys_avengers

Hopefully, we'll see you there soon :)

Current Mood: excited

Title: “Nickeled and Dimed”
Fandom: X-Men first class
Characters: Erik and Charles
Pairing: Erik/Charles
Written for:

purple_spock- Happy Halloween!
Summary: Eric is angry
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: None
Warnings: slashy
Disclaimer: You may ask who died and left me the rights to X-Men and its characters. This still has not happen.

“Nickeled and Dimed”

( Why is Erik angry this time? Come find out. )

Current Mood: sleepy

I recently dropped my iPod nano in some water which subsequently caused the battery to no longer charge. If I plug it into the computer or hook it up to a power source it does still work but that completely voids the reason for having the mp3 player in the first place. I considered getting a new nano but the thing is tiny and i like watching videos on the player and it just didnt seem feasible on this generation of nano (damn you apple) so that was out. I considered the iPod original or whatever it is, but honestly it wasn't much better screenwise. So I broke down and bought the iPod Touch. I've been playing with it and while I wasn't intially sure, I have to say I think I'm really going to like it - I mean here I am leaving work at 8am leaving a livejournal post via an app. With apps for things like LJ and Goodreads along with sport scores and twitter, its hard not to fall a little in love. Also makes emails a hell of a lot easier to keep up with. I mean dang.

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

Current Location: Out n About

For the month I needed at least 6,200 for the whole month, but I decided to add another 1000 as things have been going so well.

4100 / 7200 (56.94%)

Out of those 7200 - 1000 need to be in Fairytale AU. So I've got a measure for that too :) I just love measures!

900 / 1000 (90.00%)

Current Mood: hungry

THE HELL LJ?? What happened to everything I just wrote?? Grrrrr. I need to bed, so y'all may get the properly fixed version of this tomorrow. Sorry folks.

Current Mood: annoyed

My second

gsd_rtfn week was a success! Fabulous news. Now, when May starts, I'm going to be working nearly exclusively (that's my goal anyway) on a fic I started... oh probably two months ago? - which I thought was going to be a simple, straight forward, quick, cute AU one shot. That does not seem to be the case. Now, this is no novel (at least I don't think it will be, if it does turn out to bed one I don't know how I'll ever manage to edit it), but it has gotten much longer than expected and I really don't think it's anywhere near complete. I have to figure out exactly how the ending is going to work too. I have the general idea, but the there's a lot of technicalities I haven't quite got figured out yet. My point (I'm loopy, exhausted, and my eyes are going crossed so please forgive me) is that, starting May 1st, the majority of my writing time will be dedicated to making that story work as a unit (I have loads of parts written that need to be connected) which means I won't have a lot of time for my other stories. Because that is the case, my goal is to have Truth or Dare Part 5 ready for the editor's desk by the time I go to bed on the night of April 30th/ the morning of May 1st.

At this point my eyes are too tired to focus very well so editing this/reading over this to see if it makes sense is nigh impossible. Plus I really can't be bothered. Sorry for that. Maybe I'll fix it tomorrow, but probably not.

Night ladies and gents.

P.S./Note to Self: It is probably not a good thing that you prioritize your "to write" goal over all the other things on your "to do" list. Some days I wonder how you manage to get to work.

Current Mood: exanimate

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Distraction Central
Mostly Ranting about Dating, Part 2
Still tired but at least I was productive
April's Goals :) Done and Dusted (okay maybe not dusted, but done? Yeah)
Thiever of iPods aka Dad - A Darcy Story
Mid Month Check-In
"Goals" for March
Goals of February Update and Such
The Mentalist: A squeal before bed.
"Ganked"
Avengers
“Nickeled and Dimed”
Dear Apple
Measures and the like because I'm procrastinating. Don't ask why I've got a date "early" tomorrow!
Currently Writing - EDIT: LJ ATE MY POST
Got shit done, now I must get more shit done

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Distraction Central

Mostly Ranting about Dating, Part 2

Still tired but at least I was productive

April's Goals :) Done and Dusted (okay maybe not dusted, but done? Yeah)

Thiever of iPods aka Dad - A Darcy Story

Mid Month Check-In

"Goals" for March

Goals of February Update and Such

The Mentalist: A squeal before bed.

"Ganked"

Avengers

“Nickeled and Dimed”

Dear Apple

Measures and the like because I'm procrastinating. Don't ask why I've got a date "early" tomorrow!

Currently Writing - EDIT: LJ ATE MY POST

Got shit done, now I must get more shit done