Why Does My Shoulder Have to Hurt Like a Bitch?

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I’m worn out tonight. We had the teen “retreat” today which meant that I was basically in a 7 hour meeting today. I was stressed very nearly the whole day. I did take a break at lunch just to walk around a little outside which was hugely helpful. It was a gorgeous day, low sixties, but bright sunshine, clear skies, and mostly still air so you didn’t feel cold or anything. The “retreat” took place at one of the local parks so we were down close to a lake/pond. Autumn is in the riot of color right before all the leaves fall off the trees, but a bunch of leaves have fallen so everything is just color all over the place. Soon everything will start to turn more gray and brown, but for now everything is orange and gold and it’s really something to see. And there was just enough of that tiny movement of air to get the leaves to make that soothing shushing white noise sound I love. It went a long way towards soothing my nerves. I’m still super tense.

My shoulder has been killing me again. It was a lot better for a while when I was working out regularly and doing strength exercises, but since I’ve been too tired, busy, and injured to exercise, the pain and tension has flared up again. It’s been pretty intense pain/discomfort wise the last few days. It’s kind of sucked if I’m honest. I know sleeping on that side makes it worse too so I’ve been conscious not to sleep on the shoulder that’s the issue. Still though. It’s almost as bad as when I first did it right now. I probably need to have my annual soon so maybe I’ll check with the doc then and see if I can get something temporary for the pain. It think the tension and that muscle strain contributed to my headache as well, because I can feel that muscle pulling and knotted all through my shoulder, toward the rest of my back and down my side, as well as up my neck to my scalp behind my ear. It’s pretty extensive discomfort wise. The worst is in the meat of the shoulder and my neck below/behind my ear, but it just radiates so much.

I have so much to get done in the next few days, weeks… etcetera. And then, assuming I can navigate all the things, I start school in barely more than a month.

Looking over my goals for the month, I need to average something like 800 - 900 words a day through the end of the month, but I’m not feeling that tonight. I’m tired and feeling sore and beat up. I feel lucky to have gotten this far. Good night everyone.