Awkward Turtle

Do you ever feel like the most awkward person on the planet? Sometimes I do. I know I'm probably not actually THE MOST awkward person in the world because I would say that such a thing is statistically unlikely. It's just there's this girl at work I like and talking to her, I'm just so, so awkward. I want to talk to her. I go out of my way to have conversations with her and text her dumb things, but I inevitably say something I regret or get wicked tongue-tied or just generally come off as a doofus. I haven't felt this stupid about a crush since... probably college. And my interest feels like it's so freaking obvious as to the point of pain. I suspect the head of children's staff has figured it out and is annoyed about it because I come over to talk to said crush and then we both aren't working. 

Seriously, I just totally want to bang my head on a wooden table every time I interact with her. I've always felt like a socially inept person, but damn if I don't feel even more ridiculous than usual. Ugh. 

Also, I just realized I put my bra on inside out. I... don't even know how I managed that. 

Writing Challenge Day 13

My commute to and from work:

My commute is so much better than it used to be. I go into work at 8:30 now and so I typically end up taking about 35-40 minutes to get to work (30 if the roads are clear and I drive like the proverbial bat out of hell). It used to take me at least an hour (maybe more on a shit day) to get to work, so that is actually a major improvement. The nice thing about having a commute more than a few minutes though, is that I often get to use the time to listen to a book and enjoy my own company. My ride home is still a little closer to an hour typically and I tend to use the time to call my dad. Some days we talk for five minutes and I’ll read after or do a nice sing along for myself. As long as the traffic is moving without a lot of stopping, I find driving rather soothing. It’s nice that I can just be by myself for a bit, listening to my books or singing. I do love singing in my car. Sometimes I listen to classical music in the morning because it’s a peaceful way to start the day.