ENFP

I didn't write much last night. I ended up watching an episode of Marvel's Runaways and playing sudoku. I feel like there was more than that and that I watched something else in that time, but other than parts of Call Me Mrs. Miracle that my mom had on before she went to bed, I can't think of anything else. Such a waste of time, of course, but I really didn't feel like working on anything else. But I would like to do more this evening. On the bright side of this evening, I a) won't have to get up at the ass crack of dawn, b) don't have work tomorrow, c) don't have anything planned for the evening that would put me home later than usual. This morning I had training at downtown Charlotte and navigating downtown is one of my least favorite (non-out right evil) things to do. It's such a mess and parking is expensive if you don't get validated and you can't get validated if you don't make it to the right parking deck and just... It's awful. I like the Charlotte-area in general but driving downtown makes me cranky. I did eventually find the right parking deck, and I did eventually get to the right building, and I did eventually find the right room. I was late, but I managed, and I don't think I missed anything that didn't get repeated after I got there, so I expect to be fine. Plus, it won't be the first time I worked with a chat program and the last time I had to provide chat support it was regarding a product I didn't use or understand, and there were serious time constraints. In comparison, this should be pretty easy. I'm glad I wasn't one of the people testing the program. Apparently, they had a bunch of kids using it, and they were silly and rude. 

Okay, so now that that's out of the way, the thing that's been on my mind lately is my Meyers-Brigg personality test. 

For years and years, I've believed myself an introvert. One who was more central (something some people call ambivert) than extreme, but an introvert nonetheless. My alone recovery time is so important to me, and I need it so much more than other extroverts I know that I didn't think I could possibly be an extrovert. 

And most of the time when I took those tests, I got INFP-T (which seem really close to me as a person. But there were some things that didn't quite fit. Things like issues with small talk, introducing oneself, etc. I love small talk. Honestly, I could small talk with a wall... I'm pretty sure I have done such a thing. It's just that I've thought of myself as an introvert for so long that it's been a large part of how I define myself. To recognize at this point that I'm really probably not is sort of freeing. I don't know why thinking I'm an introvert would make me feel like I have to behave more like an introvert, but it felt like I needed to own those kinds of behavior. I mean, I love alone time. I need alone time. And I'm definitely a homebody, but I'm not afraid of talking to strangers, and I don't struggle to make casual acquaintances. 

It's just sort of interesting. I feel like the way I view myself and my life just slid sideways. I'm sure I'll get my head around all this eventually but it's just sort of boggling at the moment. 

Writing Challenge Day 11

Your current relationship; if single discuss that:

I’ve enjoyed my single status for a while now. I am thinking about getting back into dating, but dating was a lot of work in the past and I’m not sure I’m ready to face the horrors that have come with it in the past. And there have been some serious horrors in the past. Sure there were some fun moments, but I mostly remember a lot of awkwardness and pain and being creeped out on a regular basis. I think it would be nice, at some point, to have a partner for life and I do hope to get there one day. I’m just not sure I’m ready to commit to that search yet.

Whining

 

I’m hungry but I don’t want to cook. I have a headache but I don’t want to take more medicine. I'm tired but I don't want to sleep.

 

(no subject)

 

I’m feeling a little better. The headache is now low level and the tiredness is now more like a general sleepiness so I’m thankful for that.

 

I read something the other day about writing that’s been sort of niggling at my brain. Not in a bad way, just generally popping up as part of my awareness as I go about my day. I could be quoting it incorrectly and for the life of me I can’t remember where I read it. I’m sure that it’s something I can google it later which I probably will later, but right now I just want to talk about the quote. Because if I go googling it, I will get distracted and I will not write about it and instead go on a google wormhole, or whatever.

 

So anyway, the quote was something like “Come to the scene late and leave the scene early.”

 

I don’t know if I’ve heard it before and just never really gotten it lodged in my head or if I just hadn’t heard it before now, but I don’t remember hearing it before. Right now though, it’s become something that’s popped into my head while I listen to books or read or watch TV or movies. The “coming to the scene late” thing I haven’t noticed as much, mostly because I think that happens a little more naturally, at least to me. I often come into things “in the middle” of something when I’m writing. However, “leaving the scene early” is where my brain keeps catching. I’ve always had to feel like I have to properly wrap up a scene in order to leave it and I sincerely struggle to do that. And maybe I should just stop trying to do that and instead cut the scene off before I think I should. I think it might solve some of the issues I’ve been running into.

 

It’s funny because I’ve noticed the whole “leaving early” thing in some of my favorite books and in the movies I’ve been watching and I just find it really interesting. I’ve often noticed when a scene leaves me feeling like I didn’t get enough of it and I get thrown into the next one. It’s interesting because I notice that it does, in fact, leave me feeling a little bit frustrated, but also eager to listen on so I can get the information the last scene didn’t give me. It’s something I’m going to need to practice I think, but I’m really curious if it’s something I can figure out how to use. I wanted to finish that one story this week but I haven’t added to it in a couple of days so maybe I’ll try using that technique on there tonight or tomorrow. I work tomorrow but I’m hoping that I’ll have time to work on it when I’m at the desk.

Writing Challenge Day 12

2 words/phrases that make you laugh:

Hmm, I don’t know. I can’t think of any two words or phrases that make me laugh. I mean, lots of words or phrases would crack me up in the proper context but all by themselves? Granted the word “moist” and “ointment” are sort of funny. Things that sound dirty like, “wow, that’s a big sausage” or “motorboat,” yeah, those make me giggle. Anything that would tempt someone to say “that’s what she said” is probably going to make me giggle. Yeah, my sense of humor is very similar to a fourteen year old boy. It’s that and dad jokes that I love.

Current favorites include:

“Orion is a waist of space.” - “Terrible joke. Three stars.”

“What did the buffalo say to his college-bound son?” “Bison!”

I watch the shit out of those dad joke videos where they compete to see who can make the other one laugh with the ridiculousness.