ENFP

[float_on_alright]

I didn't write much last night. I ended up watching an episode of Marvel's Runaways and playing sudoku. I feel like there was more than that and that I watched something else in that time, but other than parts of Call Me Mrs. Miracle that my mom had on before she went to bed, I can't think of anything else. Such a waste of time, of course, but I really didn't feel like working on anything else. But I would like to do more this evening. On the bright side of this evening, I a) won't have to get up at the ass crack of dawn, b) don't have work tomorrow, c) don't have anything planned for the evening that would put me home later than usual. This morning I had training at downtown Charlotte and navigating downtown is one of my least favorite (non-out right evil) things to do. It's such a mess and parking is expensive if you don't get validated and you can't get validated if you don't make it to the right parking deck and just... It's awful. I like the Charlotte-area in general but driving downtown makes me cranky. I did eventually find the right parking deck, and I did eventually get to the right building, and I did eventually find the right room. I was late, but I managed, and I don't think I missed anything that didn't get repeated after I got there, so I expect to be fine. Plus, it won't be the first time I worked with a chat program and the last time I had to provide chat support it was regarding a product I didn't use or understand, and there were serious time constraints. In comparison, this should be pretty easy. I'm glad I wasn't one of the people testing the program. Apparently, they had a bunch of kids using it, and they were silly and rude. 

Okay, so now that that's out of the way, the thing that's been on my mind lately is my Meyers-Brigg personality test. 

For years and years, I've believed myself an introvert. One who was more central (something some people call ambivert) than extreme, but an introvert nonetheless. My alone recovery time is so important to me, and I need it so much more than other extroverts I know that I didn't think I could possibly be an extrovert. 

And most of the time when I took those tests, I got INFP-T (which seem really close to me as a person. But there were some things that didn't quite fit. Things like issues with small talk, introducing oneself, etc. I love small talk. Honestly, I could small talk with a wall... I'm pretty sure I have done such a thing. It's just that I've thought of myself as an introvert for so long that it's been a large part of how I define myself. To recognize at this point that I'm really probably not is sort of freeing. I don't know why thinking I'm an introvert would make me feel like I have to behave more like an introvert, but it felt like I needed to own those kinds of behavior. I mean, I love alone time. I need alone time. And I'm definitely a homebody, but I'm not afraid of talking to strangers, and I don't struggle to make casual acquaintances. 

It's just sort of interesting. I feel like the way I view myself and my life just slid sideways. I'm sure I'll get my head around all this eventually but it's just sort of boggling at the moment.