Confessions of Fangirl

There was this story building in my head the other day while I was working which probably would’ve been fine except for the part where the story that was going on in my head was porn. No plot, just porn. I so wanted to focus on it and I just didn’t feel like I could risk getting into it while I was working and anyone could catch sight of it. I wrote down some notes about the story, so that might help. Even those I tried to write in a super vague way so that if someone was walking behind me they may not immediately notice that I was making notes about lesbian (or bi! Or whatever wlw these babes in my head are since I don’t know yet) sex. By the time I got home I was far too exhausted to write anything. I went to bed pretty shortly after I got home and slept something like 10 and a half hours. I really need to be in bed asleep now, but it always takes me a while to wind down after work. Of course what I’m really annoyed about is that even though I slept a shit ton last night, I still felt exhausted all day and had a headache for most of it so I pounded caffeine and painkillers all day in an attempt to feel better and now I’m jacked up on caffeine. So aggravating.

I wanted to try again tonight but I was so off kilter today and was so freaking busy, that I just felt too drained to focus. I couldn’t even watch a new episode of something, I just watched a couple of episodes of Leverage. Now I’m headed to bed. Fingers crossed that tomorrow is a little better for me focus and task-wise not to mention feeling better.