Progress or Something (Part 3)

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It feels good to know that I’ll be off tomorrow too. I think it was definitely the right decision for me to take the day off of work. If would be getting ready to leave work now if I had gone in today and while I might have gotten some writing done, I doubt it would’ve been much. I wouldn’t have gotten to stay up late last night reading and writing. I wouldn’t have gotten to sleep into today before getting started on my tasks. And I would’ve had to have spent an hour and a half in the car just for the commute. I was going to try to edit the blog post today from home. I was going to count it towards my words goal for the year, but I just don’t feel like thinking about work stuff right now. All that can and will just have to wait until I go back on the second. Jared did say it was fine if that’s what happened, and I think it just will have to be that way. I know it’s going to be a little rough because I’ll only work two days and then I’ll be off Friday and then I’ll be working the weekend. 

And shit, it’s only a matter of days before I start grad school, which is just hurting my brain. 

I’m hoping after all this time off and the mini decluttering/spring cleaning adventure I’ve been having that I’ll be in a better head space to do my job and take care of shit at work. There’s no telling of course. Could be I’ll back and still not “feel like” doing my damn job. I’ll still mostly get it done though. I hope that I’ll be productive and steady. With school too. It’s going to be interesting for sure, but I want to do well. 

Still, I think it was the right choice. I have goals that I’ve almost met and if I can get them done or super close to done, I think I’ll feel good about going into the New Year. 

It’s such an arbitrary thing, the New Year. It makes a lot more sense to go by the lunar calendar than it does the arbitrary Georgian calendar we’ve created where the New Year doesn’t line up with anything. I feel like the Winter Solstice would actually be the best choice, honestly. That would’ve made the most sense as far when to start the year, but no one asked me. It had to have been dudes who came up with this shit, because I cannot imagine a woman going, “let’s start it on this random day here.” I wonder if the first time they started this calendar if it was the first new moon or something that they were going to hit, or something similar. I suppose I could look into it, but I really have more important things to be working on right now. 

As things stand right now, I need five more books to meet the reading goal I wasn’t going to set for myself for the year, and about 1,500 words to meet my less arbitrary writing goal. I honestly don’t remember making any other goals for myself for the year. I had the thought that I wanted to be able to do a pull up by February or March of 2019, but a lot of my physical fitness stuff has been derailed for the moment. My eating has gotten totally out of hand too, but that’s beside the point for the moment. I may get around to the unassisted pull-up thing again at some point in my future, but I think my focus for the upcoming year needs to be work and school. I still want to write stories, but I’m thinking drabble type vignettes for each month this year instead of longer stories. I think Reb and I had talked about 500 words or something like that, which seems like a good idea. I don’t want to give up on my writing goal or on writing altogether, but that has to come second to school assignments and life. 

Ever time I think of all the things I’ve taken on at work, I start to feel overwhelmed. It’s all going to be okay and so is school. I don’t have as much on my plate as some people, and it’s definitely all going to be okay. 

I think I will set some goals for myself though for the year. I’m going to be thinking about that tonight and for the next few days. For now, I’m going to see about reading a few more comics, and then I’ll see if I can finish my SnowBaz story before dinner so I can edit while we watch The Meg and post before midnight. 

I’m gonna make it. I’m going to make my goals. Woohoo!