Kate Goes on a tangent and forgets what she's doing.

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Today was interesting if a little long. I didn’t get nearly enough sleep last night because I stayed up stupid late and then I had to get up earlier than usual to get to the outreach we were doing this morning. I had to be there around 7:30 am. And I was there at 7:36 am which is really good for me, “on time-wise.” Whatever. I’m working on it and I had to leave my house before 7 am to do that which was asking an awful lot. But I didn’t exactly go to bed at a reasonable hour last night. I knew I would probably pay for staying up too late, but honestly, it wasn’t that bad today. It’s probably tomorrow that I’m really going to suffer. Tomorrow the adrenaline will have faded and I’ll just be left with my tiredness. I think this is part of why I continue to stay up too late. I won’t pay for it too much the next day and I’ll think I’m invisible and that I don’t need sleep when I do in fact need lots and lots of sleep.

I kept losing track of myself today and searching for words during my presentation. I felt like I repeated myself a lot in a boring way, but I did my best. Well, I suppose my best would’ve involved getting a reasonable amount of sleep last night and spending more time preparing than just making a vague spreadsheet and talking about how much time the organizers estimate we’ll have. Although sometimes the more prep and stress I put into presentations, the more things go off the rails and I have to wing it anyway. I like having a loose plan so that I can quickly adjust to audibles on the play (like I know much of anything about football besides the fact that going ten yards is a down and a touch down is six points) and keep going.

I do have a planner I’ve been using pretty regularly that I think is helping me. It’s the Panda planner brand and it’s nice that they have spots for things thing focuses, goals, priorities, as well as things you’re thankful for from the day before and what your wins of the day are.

I found a sticker that has Leonard Snart’s quote about plans and throwing them away so I put that on there and it’s immensely hilarious to me that I put a quote about plans failing and being tossed out on a planner. That’s exactly my kind of humor.

I’d really like to stay up and talk in more depth about 100 things, but I’m barely staying conscious anymore and I literally can’t hold my eyes open anymore. Time for bed for me!