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It’s going to be my goal for the week to spend ten minutes each day writing with my undivided attention. I don’t know how well this will go, but I think that it might be my best shot at getting back on track with the writing goal. Making a goal number didn’t seem to work lately. Like I was getting stuck on the number and sort of psyching myself out with it too. I remember reading that sometimes when people want to get themselves to push through a difficult goal, they double their goal and push for the outrageous number instead. Actually, there’s a whole philosophy out there about multiplying your goal by 10, but I wasn’t going to try that.

I thought the minutes might make it easier. That way, if I’m struggling to write, I won’t make myself miserable that I haven't reached the number I had originally planned.

I say that, and even as I sit here, attempting to stay conscious enough to write this (I have nodded off twice now), I’m struggling to get through five minutes. Today was intensely tiring. I started by jogging and working out at the gym around 5:30 per usual for me and dad so I was up at five (not uncommon now, but still, it’s not my preferred time. Then I worked an extra hour at work so that I can have Friday off. I worked Sunday but only five hours so I have to make up the time somewhere and I really don't want to come in on Friday for three hours.

I really wanted this to be my undivided attention but I just fell asleep again.

Anyway, after that, I went to the doctor. There’s an Urgent Care/family medicine place that has recently opened up and I thought I would try them since they’re so close to my house. I’ve been struggling immensely with my feet and I needed to make sure that I was a) not wrong about the issue and be doing all I could to treat it. As it turns out, there are a few more things I can do, some foot/ankle braces they could give me, and they wrote me a prescription for Advil. I need to take that actually. He wants me to take it three times a day.

Anyway, I’ve focused as hard as I can for as long as I can. I’ll have to try again tomorrow.