My Human Batter is Out of Charge

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I’m still trying to figure out my Malec story. I’m thinking I may try starting over at some point. I may also need to rewatch that episode. You know, for research purposes, obviously. I’m hoping it might give me some idea of what it is that I’ve gotten wrong. Part of me wants to go to ahead and do that tonight and so that I can maybe get some ideas down and then work on the story when I’m at the desk tomorrow afternoon.

 

The other part of me thinks that’s a pretty terrible idea and that I need to go to bed right the fuck now. I am exhausted and I did have a stupid early morning after staying up too late last night and while I do get to sleep in tomorrow, I’ve not gotten nearly enough sleep in days and I am in serious need of a longass night’s sleep. Not to mention that I don’t know how much good working on any project right now would do me since I am as tired as I am.

 

My neck is killing me tonight as well as the heels and arches of my feet. I knew I shouldn’t wear the shoes I did to go for my jog last night but the state of my other shoes--lots of sand in them or having been worn too many days in a row--made it seem like I really needed to wear the oldest instead of others. Unfortunately, they just don’t have the same support the others do because they weren’t designed as specifically for arch support and because they’re older and they don’t have inserts (the other two pairs do have inserts).

 

The interesting part of it is that I don’t usually experience the pain while I’m exercising. So when I went on the walk/jog yesterday, I was totally fine and didn’t feel anything beyond the normal discomfort of pushing my body to the next level of the couch to 5k program. It was only after I’d sat down for a little bit that the pain really began in earnest. That’s a classic symptom of plantar fasciitis, an issue that I know I have anyway, so I don’t think there’s any heel spurs or other issues going on which is good but it’s still frustrating that I have to do with plantar fasciitis in general because it’s not fun and not easy to relieve long term.

 

Granted, part of the problem is probably how tired I am. No way that my body has been able to do the repairs it needs to do with me sleeping as little as I have been. I really need to get my shit together on getting rest. I know 8 a night would probably be best, but I don’t think that I can realistically expect myself to do more than 7 most work nights, at least not for a while. Lately though, I haven’t even been averaging 7. The sleep tracker thing on my iPhone says that my human body battery is about at 23% charge. I’m not sure I’m explaining that well or how it is that it gets those numbers, but I definitely agree that I am at critically low levels rest and sleep wise. Even though my shoulder has been doing so much better overall, it’s killing me tonight so I know the issue is beyond bad right now.

 

So yeah, I’m going to bed. I can try watching bits of Shadowhunters tomorrow. Or whenever, but not tonight.