PWP and Other Problems

There was this story building in my head the other day while I was working which probably would’ve been fine except for the part where the story that was going on in my head was porn. No plot, just porn. I so wanted to focus on it and I just didn’t feel like I could risk getting into it while I was working and anyone could catch sight of it. I wrote down some notes about the story, so that might help. Even those I tried to write in a super vague way so that if someone was walking behind me they may not immediately notice that I was making notes about lesbian (or bi! Or whatever wlw these babes in my head are since I don’t know yet) sex. By the time I got home I was far too exhausted to write anything. I went to bed pretty shortly after I got home and slept something like 10 and a half hours. I really need to be in bed asleep now, but it always takes me a while to wind down after work. Of course what I’m really annoyed about is that even though I slept a shit ton last night, I still felt exhausted all day and had a headache for most of it so I pounded caffeine and painkillers all day in an attempt to feel better and now I’m jacked up on caffeine. So aggravating.

 

I wanted to try again tonight but I was so off kilter today and was so freaking busy, that I just felt too drained to focus. I couldn’t even watch a new episode of something, I just watched a couple of episodes of Leverage. Now I’m headed to bed. Fingers crossed that tomorrow is a little better for me focus and task-wise not to mention feeling better.

Can't Function

 

I’m so tired. I’m frustrated and cranky and in a hella pissy mood in general. I know it’s partly that I’m tired. I’ve been going and going and going for what feels like weeks and when I think about it, it kind of has been. I worked Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday of the last week of August and then that Thursday night I drove to Dragon*Con. Dragon*Con was a whirlwind of excitement, activity, and socialization for three and a half days before I drove home Monday evening. I had Ju’Leia over Tuesday and Wednesday was amazing, but it still felt like I was going a little. I mean we had fun and it was low key, watching dumb movies fun, but I was still trying to be functional and sociable which is pretty tough. Then I took her to the airport the next morning. We left the house before 4:30 am. I did get a tiny wink of sleep before I had to be up for a shower and work, but it was not nearly enough. I spent the day at a different branch which meant being hella personable and hella on point since I was with people who would only be judging based on who I was that day. Then I did a day at my normal branch and I honestly don’t remember how I made it through. I had Friday off and I slept a good chunk, but Dad wanted to go get a camera so we did shopping and ran some errands. Then it was back to work on Saturday. Again, the weekend wasn’t overly hard but it was still a lot to pick back up on.

 

The rest of this week has been hella dumb and frustrating and busy. There have definitely been some good points. I had my yearly review meeting today which went really well. I was stressed and anxious about it so that didn’t help my overall situation, but I was glad to have it done and I was glad that I was given such glowing praise.

 

It’s just been such a dumb week with being short staffed and the internet going out for a bit and schools not closing at normal times and everyone flooding to the library before the hurricane hits. There’s this crazy woman from Greensboro who keeps calling and then getting into tangents about the devil being alive and well in North Carolina and just… all kinds of stuff. I’ve got a three day weekend this weekend and I know I’m going to be doing nothing but recovering.

 

That said, I’m heading to bed and hoping that tomorrow will be easy even if I’m worried we’re going to be overrun.