FanFiction and Other Problems

I’m struggling a little with my story. I feel like I might have taken further than it was willing to go. Like it wasn’t really interested in being what I thought it was supposed to be. I don’t know if that makes sense. I may post it up to the point that it liked and then work on maybe making a follow up or a seperate story all together to see if maybe I can write what I had originally set out to write. I stopped writing my daily writing things again and I haven’t done a chapter of “The Artist’s Way” in a while which would probably also be good for me. I also haven’t been writing stories this month. Mostly my writing has been journaling, which is fine, but it hasn’t been much and it doesn’t push me like writing fiction does. Well, sometimes journaling about issues and thoughts and such does push me and it does help me but that’s in a different way than the writing fiction (even fanfiction). Journaling can push me on a personal and emotional level, hopefully towards growth and better mental health, but it’s not like it really helps me be a better writer. 

I say that, but at the same time I do think the journaling helps clear out some of the dumbshit you get stuck in your head that blocks you from writing. And it’s definitely a good thing to clear out the bullshit for a number of reasons but including the ability to write a little better. 

I’m hoping this will help me shake this story loose. 

Why Do I do This to Myself?

I am wiped out my friends. It has been an incredible day, honestly wonderful but I am exhausted. I really should've have stayed up to finish a Hallmark Christmas movie before I watched the Doctor Who Christmas Special, but I know y'all don't expect any different from me by now. My eyes are doing that thing where they water every time I yawn, and my eyelids feel so heavy I wonder if they've stolen equipment from the gym. 

 

That said, there are a couple of things I want to mention. The first is Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates it. I hope you had a lovely celebration and were able to enjoy your family and friends (at least for the most part). The second thing I want to say is that I had a freaking fantastic Christmas. I slept in a bit, watched a Christmas movie, got amazing presents (including the new laptop I'm using to type this blog post!--I cried when I opened it and because of that dad told me I wasn't allowed to watch any more Hallmark Christmas Movies (lololol, who does he think he's kidding??), I made Christmas dinner with a little help with a couple of the sides and it turned out amazing, and my sister got engaged! The whole family was in on it so I have to say I'm so impressed with us keeping that a secret until the moment of the proposal.  

 

I'm trying so hard to stay awake to write just a little more about these experiences but I am just not going to be able to stay conscious much longer, and I would be devasted if I messed up my new laptop.