float_on_alright | Too Tired for Any of This Nonsense (Reply)

I wanted to so very badly to write tonight, but I’m stripped to the bone tired. I wanted so much to really figure out and start digging into the story I’m going to post for May tonight, but I’m barely holding my consciousness together to finish this episode of Eureka with mom before she goes to bed.

The thing is though, I think as soon as I get up to brush my teeth and go to bed, I’ll have gotten a bit of a second wind. I probably still won’t feel like writing. I haven’t really felt like writing at all though that isn’t an unusual feeling. If anything, the times I do feel like writing are incredibly rare. I also know that if I don’t write on a regular basis, regardless of how I feel, I won’t get anything written and the days I do feel like writing will become fewer and farther between.

One of the problems I’m having is my addiction to Facebook. This isn’t a new issue for me, generally speaking. I’ve deleted the app from my phone on a number of occasions in hopes that the app not being accessible will help me not use it. It does help somewhat, but then there will be something I want to sign up for using the account and after a few times of needing it for various social reasons or sign up reasons or sharing my posts with ease reasons, I end up downloading the app again. Granted, after it’s been gone for a while, I usually fair a little better not obsessing over it. The only trouble is that I usually end up on Twitter which is not any better at all. It may be worse because so much more information about the shitty things people do seems to find me there. How that’s the case, I seriously don’t understand. I mean Facebook is a cesspool, after all.

I did see this app that lets you save a link to facebook on your phone and then when you tap on it, it may open Facebook or it may open your Kindle app (I think they have some other apps to choose from but I remember that one was the one they recommended or was the top choice or something. You choose, when you’re setting up the app, what percentage of the time you want the link to open Facebook and how often you want it to open the alternative app. It’s a pretty clever idea and I may need to look back into it. I’m sure I could find the Facebook app on my phone fairly quickly, even if I did hide it from myself, but I think the “bait and switch” might help my conscious brain make the decision rather than the impulsive, insecure subconscious brain making choices left and right without anyone sitting her down to tell her that she’s acting like a crazy person.

God, I’m so tired. I need sleep. Night y’all!