float_on_alright | You gotta fight for your right to party! And by party, I mean read books (Reply)

I already know I’m going to be up way too late tonight. I mean, it’s already after midnight and I want to write a little bit and there’s also a book calling my name and I have a distinct impression that I will be reading until I literally cannot hold my eyes open anymore or until I finish the book. It’s a fake relationship trope m/m romance and it’s written in that style that I find beyond addicting. I can’t fully explain what that style is, I only know I would give my left foot (so long as it was like under anesthesia) to be able to write that way and tell a plot like that for two hundred pages. I read the first few chapters at lunch and I was literally squealing with glee.

I was hoping that this weekend--because I’m off for three days--would be a good weekend to do some writing, but the family party is tomorrow and Jaymie is in town visiting so we’ll be doing something at some point and I can pretty much guarantee that those are going to eat my normal writing time. I mean the party will be fun so I’m not sad about that and seeing Jaymie will be awesome cause I haven’t seen her since like September so I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining (too much, anyway), but I am frustrated with myself for not getting more writing done last week when I had an entire condo to myself for three days.

I did need last weekend though. It was essential that I get that time for myself and I’m incredibly thankful that I had it.

I wish I wasn’t so tired now. I can’t be mad about being tired. I’ve been up since about five after going to sleep around 1am last night. Dad and I went to the gym and then we came back to the house so I could shower and go to work. I had a pretty good work day. I didn’t get quite as much done as I would’ve liked and I’m frustrated that I didn’t save the space to have my book club in May, but it is what it is. If I get very, very lucky, the community room will end up being available and I’ll be able to snag it. Or I’ll be able to find a better reason than, “oops forgot to reserve the space!” as an excuse for not having it that month or having it on a different night. I’ve been trying to come up with a plausible reason for having it the next Monday and I might be able to make that work.

I’m working on a Shadowhunters story based on the alternate universe that Clary and Jace visit for a little bit in the first season, but I’m struggling with it a little. I’ve been able to add little bits here and there, but there hasn’t been any flow. I think part of the problem is I’m still trying to figure out exactly what I want to see happen and how I want it to happen. I have a vague idea, but I may need to spend some more thorough time plotting it out in order to get any real traction on the story. Maybe “plot it out” is a bit strong of a statement, but definitely, have a more concrete idea of how I want things to go than I do now. Right now, I just know I want the boys to pine for each other before they end up together, but no story writing is really THAT easy. There are definitely a lot more factors to consider.

Man, as much as I was hoping to read that whole book tonight, my eyes are watering when I yawn, and I feel like my eyelids are trying to lift the weights I was working with this morning (all of them) so I doubt I’ll be conscious much longer.

I hope everyone has an incredible weekend.