float_on_alright | Harry Potter Fan Club (Reply)

One of my co-workers has a Harry Potter Club at the library called something like “The Charlotte Mecklenburg Marauders’ Club” and I went tonight for the first time and seriously I should’ve gone last month… and the month before. I don’t know what I was thinking not sticking around for one evening after work to enjoy the club. Ridiculous. I had such a good time. I was such a nerd, but I wasn’t even the biggest Harry Potter nerd there! Which was both comforting and made me feel a little ashamed of myself. Okay, not ashamed. A little sad that I’m not married to someone who is a big ass Harry Potter fan or some kind of nerd that I could spend the majority of my free time nerd-ing out with. Not that I don’t spend a shit ton of my time nerd-ing out with friends I absolutely adore. I hope I’ll get there one day, but it was just nice to see a relationship I admire. There really aren’t many of those. Most people I see who are married or in committed long term relationships don’t really seem all that happy. And I just can’t stand the idea of staying in a relationship that made me miserable.

I don’t know all the ins and outs of their relationship and everyone is probably happier than they seem because the only time they want to talk about their relationship is when they need to complain about it. I don’t really hear about the quiet moments—the ones where they’re just watching tv and being together or the car rides where they talk about how much they loved that concert they went to and how their brother’s friend’s cousin caused drama at Thanksgiving. I think I would like those moments one day. I just don’t think I can bare to go through the online dating thing again. I’ve done it too many times with horrendous results. I just cannot do that to myself again.

I had another meeting with my branch manager today and she said people are still pleased with me which is great. I’m loving the job still even though there are moments I want to shake the customers. I figure there are downsides to every job else they wouldn’t pay you to do it. But you can find something that you can mostly enjoy and then it won’t be so bad doing it forty hours a day.

Anyway, I need to head to bed, but I’m still thankful for my job and my new nerdy ass Harry Potter fan friends.