Laughter and Messes

It was kind of a crazy day today and there was a lot going on. Part of it was really fun. Jonathan was back today and we had a good morning talking about our bracket wins for the Disney VS Pixar match up that’s floating around the internet which was a pretty amusing endeavor. Then we got into a discussion about Superhero and Villain matchups and then we got into a whole different discussion. One of the things I love about Jonathan is that he can disagree with me and we can talk about stuff and he doesn’t make me feel like I don’t know what I’m talking about when we talk about comics. Most guys like to lord over me that they know/understand more about comics than I do and it’s just infuriating. But not Jonathan. I love our friendship, I really do. I know it’s work buddies and I don’t know that’ll ever be an outside of work friendship, but I appreciate its existence in my life nonetheless.

 

We also had a meeting today for our department that was sort of interesting. Parts of it were frustrating, like any job, but I like our department for the most part. And because our meetings mostly get us out of work as opposed to being a lot of work or interfering with things we need to do get done, it’s actually kind of nice to go to one. We have one for the department each month and they’re looking at making branch meeting a monthly meeting too. They’ll actually do two of those, but where half the staff will go to one and half the staff will go to the other so that everyone gets a chance to go without messing up their schedules too much and we don’t have to have a bunch of people cover us from other branches or something like that.

 

I need to go get the wash out of the machine and I need to go to bed. I want to stay up and watch another episode of Shadowhunters and write some more, but I have a class I’m teaching to seniors down at the YMCA tomorrow and this isn’t something I’ve done before so it’s probably a good idea for me to get some decent sleep tonight. I need to unload the dishwasher as well, but I think that’s going to have to wait too.

 

There’s so much I still need to get done and I know my folks are going to wonder why I didn’t get more done, and I’m going to say I had a lot going on, but part of the reason is that I went to see “Love, Simon” yesterday and I can’t really tell them that. I could tell them I needed to go see “Black Panther” again, but I was supposed to see that with them if I saw it again and I don’t think I could convince them that it was just so urgent that I saw the movie again, this week, when I haven’t really shown any particular urgency about getting to see it again up to this point. And there’s nothing else out at the theater that I’ve already seen. Plus, I didn’t tell them I was going to see a movie yesterday and they wouldn’t understand why I didn’t tell them before. That’s two and half hours or so that I could’ve been working on projects around the house that I went to see that movie instead. I don’t regret it. I needed to see “Love, Simon” and I definitely hope to get to see it again soon. I’ve even started rereading a little of it. It just makes explaining why it is I’ve had so little time to work on anything harder. It probably won’t be a big deal. I’m probably making a mountain out of a molehill. But these are the things you think about when you can’t live your whole life as if you’re straight, but you can’t tell your parents you’re queer. It’s a mess, basically. I long to be open with them about it, but I also don’t want to lose them yet either. I think that’s part of why I do spend so much time with them. I feel like there’s a day coming when I’ll be outed and everything will change and I won’t have them in my life loving me anymore and I can’t help but hold on as tightly as I can in the meantime.

 

Like I said, giant mess.

 

Well, wish me luck on all the things. There are so many things.

On the Run

 
Title: On the Run
Series: Love on the Run
Characters: Natasha Romanov, Maria Hill
Genre: mostly friendship,
Fandom: Marvel Movie Verse -- Post Captain America: Civil War
Summary: Natasha looks for help after disobeying The Accords by helping Steve and Bucky get away at the airport.
Rating: PG
Pairings: none in this, planned Natasha/Sharon Carter for the series
Warnings/Spoilers: None.

I don't own any of these characters or anything, I'm just having fun.  


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